After months of sporadic posting and complaining about life so much it made my own eyes roll, a few things are looking on the up.
Earlier in the year, I was feeling exceptionally lonely, no longer satisfied at work (but remaining busy as I worked six days a week) and unhappy with how most aspects of my life were going. I was mentally exhausted from the constant nagging feeling that I was treading water or in fact being pulled backwards by not being proactive and not knowing which proactive steps to take.
I still worry about being Single Susie and I still do a huge amount of things on my own because otherwise I would just be sitting at home and there’s only so much Netflix a girl can watch (and I can watch a lot!). That’s ok, because I'm also able to recognise that I have an insanely supportive family and some hilarious friends who are busy but provide great fun too.
I’m on the cusp of starting one full time job. Five days a week, same place! It will give me the opportunity to properly engage with my workplace and, I hope, give me the opportunity to breathe properly and work out what to do next. My confidence was rock bottom after some unfortunate cutbacks at work, but now I’m starting to rebuild the foundations of knowing that I’m pretty ok.
What does this mean here? Before I just didn’t have the energy to resize images and write. I felt I wasn’t doing enough of anything to write about. Now? I’m not so sure I have anything interesting to say! But I am taking lots of photographs because of a year long course, still reading books and still experimenting in the kitchen and generally doing things.
So, I’m going to carry on but will take the pressure off of posting regularly to take away the guilt of leaving blank weeks or months in my wake. Obviously, the aim is to not leave gaping holes between posts, but things are going to be pretty laid back. Thanks for sticking around if you’re still around. I’ve got a few books to write about, lots of photos and happenings and thoughts and a special post coming up this Saturday- keep your eyes peeled! x